Saturday, December 31, 2011

New rules

Nº1: Never, ever, expect anything from anyone.

Nº2: Be yourself no matter what.

Nº3: Enjoy every single moment. It will never be repeated again.

SMILE!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Unsleepy

Days pass by without getting any sleep. I can't think about anything else. It's hard and it hurts. You are always in my thoughts. I trust in the future. I tell myself this is just a short period and then we'll be happily ever after together. 

I'm only in 2nd year of university. I know I have my whole life in front of me, but somehow I just don't go on. I'm stuck here and you are still in my head. I know I should be stronger and I know I shouldn't centre my existence towards him. I do, though. I have the stupid belief my blue prince is going to come and make my life complete.

It's a new period in my life. New faces you might not see ever again. However, they form you as a person, they make you learn and grow. Sometimes I would like to know for sure that everything is going to be ok. Sometimes I really find it hard to believe. I feel like I need that one person made for me to fix everything.

So, you give yourself false hopes and they break down. You are breaking down, hurt, it's freaking hard, but you still continue doing the same silly action. You keep telling yourself "maybe...", you raise your hopes even though you know it's not good for you. So you cry, and you watch romantic comedies, and you laugh with your friends. Finally you realise it's time for you to learn about you, to learn how to fake a smile when you don't want the world to know about your life, to learn how to be strong and brave.

No matter how many times and how hard I try to convince myself, I just can't get you off my mind. And it hurts and it's freaking hard.