Saturday, December 13, 2014

Being yourself by yourself

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about love and relationships. I've always been the kind of girl who wanted to meet her prince charming and live together forever after. But life doesn't have to be so straight forward.

Just live first. Don't be in such a hurry. Travel. See the world. Laugh. Cry. Jump. Watch films. Read books. Listen to music. Watch sunsets and sunrises. Go skiing. Go skating. Go dancing. Live. As cliché as it sounds, you only live once. Don't worry about what people think. Appreciate when people are kind to you and be understanding when people are mean to you. At the end of the day, it only matters who had the most fun.

It is okay to be selfish. You are the only one who is going to be with you forever. You might as well get on well with yourself...


Saturday, August 9, 2014

Inked

It is said that it is bad for your health to get attached to objects. And I do agree, but there are two things which have helped me to get where I am today. No matter how shitty I'd felt or how bad the world seemed at the time, I'd put on my earphones and I'd inmerse myself in a book. I'd simply stop existing and the time didn't matter. I could smile.

Then I got back to reality. And again, no matter how shitty I'd felt before, I could smile again. Reading and listening to music are the one thing that keep me happy no matter what. They are my batteries.




Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Work hard... my ass!

I've always been one of those students who work their ass off to get to the dead-line. Meaning, I usually do my assignments with time, I'm not one of those who do everything in the last minute. Now, I procrastinate and I am lazy from time to time.

What I simply don't get is how on earth does someone who doesn't touch a fucking pen in the whole year gets a pass in a subject in which I've spent hours working on? How?

I've been told that in order to reach far, I have to work hard. Well... I have worked hard, but the results ain't helping me to reach far. How do you do that? Succeding without any effort? Does anyone know?

I know I'm jealous right now. I know I fucking am. But how on earth can you not be jealous of someone who just doesn't give a shit about anyone and gets everything she wants? I've already thought of "at least you are a good person". Well, fuck, I don't want to be a good person anymore if that means working hard and not getting anything in return.



Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Shorty Shawty

I am a short person, I have always been and it has been a struggle all my life. People has always make fun of me in one way or another. I've reached a point in my life where I´ve accepted it. I have some friends who joke around with me about me being short, and I don't mind, because I know they are just kidding.

But if you met someone and they instantly said 'wow, you are really small, aren't you?'... well, maybe I find you huge, you asshole!

Or in a party, cute boys alert, a friend tells me 'that one is too tall for you'... What does that even mean? I am not good enough just because of my shortness?!

 I am the first one who knows my flaws and tries to improve what I can in order to accept myself. Society and people keep telling me that I am not good enough.

You know what they say: new year, new me... and I am going to prove them wrong.



Tuesday, December 10, 2013

I don't need more drama in my life.


The other day, I was hanging out with a friend. She has a boyfriend, she had this big fight with him and another friend of mine during the summer and I supported her, listenned to her and all that stuff friends do for each other. I did not and I still do not agree with her in the way she solved the argument. She has solved the argument with his boyfriend, but she ruined the relationship she had with this other friend of mine, who - get this - was the one who introduced them in the first place... and talked to both so that they got together and so on.

After all this drama, I do not want nor need a freaking boyfriend.

I am proud to say that I have more than 5 friends. Nowadays, those are hard to find and I don't know about the rest of the world, but I need them. Imagine you had just one single friend for the rest of your life. That'd be boring as hell and that friend wouldn't be available for you 24/7. That is how I fell some of my friends with boyfriends are living. It's hard to get to see them, and when I do see them, they are so inmersed in that pink beautiful world of love that they don't notice that you have your little problems too and that you need a little support sometimes too.

What gets on my nerves is that this friend of mine tries to find me a boyfriend or talk me into looking for a guy to fulfill my love life.

I don't mean to sound rude, but back off, I don't need any more drama in my life, thankyouverymuch.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Friends and other magical creatures

I am one of those people who gets friendly with people easily. If I like you for more than a week, I'd probably help you with anything even if I don't really know you that well. I don't do it because I want to get something from you, I do it because I want to, that's the way I am, that's the way my parents taught me to be with people... "Treat people the way you want to be treated". In return, you expect people to do the same, but they don't always do.


Wouldn't it be nice, though, if the world just stopped for a second, and thought about other people instead of just themselves?



Saturday, October 5, 2013

The Freedom of Being Single

This summer, I stayed in London for a month. For me, it was the most awesome thing that had ever happenend to me. I got to go and visit everything I wanted, I met great people, and I enjoyed a LOT. I guess I could say it was the best trip of my (short) life.

While being there, I realised that I was single and that I was really fine with it. In fact, I was glad I was single. I could walk around beautiful London, stay with friends until whatever time I wanted, make plans, change them, and visit whatever I wanted to visit. I didn't have to send texts or check my emails or meet with anyone if I didn't feel like it. I didn't have to count on anyone but me. Now, don't get me wrong, I do believe it is great to have a partner to share all these experiences, to cuddle, to feel loved...

But the thing is... I was completely free. No worries. No problems. No nothing. Just me and the world.

For the first time in a long time, I was actually glad that I didn't have a boyfriend.


Saturday, September 28, 2013

Social networks

I was talking to a friend one day about this awesome weekend I just had. I hadn't even finished the very first sentence when she interrupted me and told me "Oh, yeah, I read it on twitter". You could say it is my fault for sharing that thought with the whole world on a website. 

True. 

However, it made me think about this social media we are so found of. I mean, it is great to stay in touch with people from other countries and catching up with old friends; but we are not aware of the change in people's mentality about the social concept. At least I am not.

Nowadays, we are so attached to technology that we can't even stay half an hour without checking our emails, messages on whatsapp, or mentions on twitter. It is truly a shame. The freaking phone is becoming an extension of us, if it isn't already. 

Sometimes I feel like the world is changing too fast and I just can't keep it up. Maybe I'm an old soul or something like that. Or maybe I just feel too lonely to accept the truth and the change of the modern world.



Sunday, December 16, 2012

Religion

I believe there is a God up there, who knows each of us really well and that He is there for us to help us pursue the happiness.

However, I don't believe in Church or any religious institution. The reason is because they are human and they all make mistakes. How can you lead a massive group of people into something you think it is true? You sure can tell them here, this is what I think the Bible/Koran says. Fine. But do not banish or allow whatever you like whenever you want. Why the fuck does the Church or the Islam say that those who don't believe will burn in hell forever? That is not the God I know, or any of the things He taught us.

I believe religion is good. I believe God teach us in the Bible that being a good person is the way of being happy. My parents taught me to do that thinking "Do not do to others what you would not want the others to do to you". That is my life's philosophy.

Now, I don't understand how people who go every Sunday to Church won't be an example of what Jesus "would do". If you love so much God, stop being selfish and think about others, because we are His creation and He loves us. Plus, Jesus told us to love each other. Do I need to be more clear?


Sunday, October 21, 2012

Time machine.

So many ways to go. So many problems with so many different ways to solve them. I wish I had a time machine to go back and forward throughout my life.

I regret some things I said, did and cause. I regret things I haven't said, done or caused. I could change them if I had a time machine.

I guess this is not happening just to me. Maybe someone would want to go back in time and change some historical events, in order to make life a little bit brighter.

I wish I had spent more time with my family. I wish I'd said all those things I was thinking in the right moment. I wish I hadn't said all those hurting things to people I loved.

But now again, if I changed all that, I wouldn't be me. No one is ever satisfied with their lives or acts or things they have done, said or cause. The thing is: I know I am selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But that's who I am. I can't change my past and undo things.

So... If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.